‎"Love that will not betray you, dismay or enslave you,It will set you free.Be more like the person you were made to be.There is a design,an alignment to cry,of my heart you see,The beauty of love as it was made to be."

I mean I seriously could have written this, and I did slightly alter a word..............too bad I didn't write it :) 

There is something entirely spiritual about these few words. Something very real and very pure. 

Thank God for a good walk and a the good shuffle feature on my ipod!  

If it ain't right in my soul, then it just ain't right.

"There are two ways to be fooled. One is to believe what isn't true; the other is to refuse to believe what is true."
— Søren Kierkegaard


As women, we just know. We have this innate ability to know if it's all lining up or not. Many women are afraid of that, and they do everything that they can to drown that voice out, but thank God that mine screams load enough for me to hear it. 


Compromising yourself=fake=unhappy


That's what I think. 


If it ain't right in my soul, then it just ain't right. 

I Want Real

 ‎"Don't you wanna stay here a little while?Don't you wanna hold each other tight?"

I want to stay here a little while. I want to stay exactly where I am. I want to feel my way into it. I want to be held, and know that by learning about each other I can truly fall in love. I want to be real. I want to be understood, and I want to be loved completely; completely for the person that God has created me to be. I won't hide, and if that can't be handled, then it'll be time for me to take notice of that fact. 

"Don't you wanna fall asleep with me tonight? Don't you wanna stay here a little while? We can make forever feel this way?Don't you wanna stay?"

I want to hang onto every moment, and never push for the next. I want to breathe in the time that we have right now. I want to sit back and realize my blessings. Be lazy with me. I don't want to make plans. I make plans all the time. I know that I know how to make plans, but I want to know how to NOT make plans. I want to feel it out; figuring moment by moment. I need to feel. I want real. 

This world is full of flashing lights and shiny "relationships". Full of things that look amazing from the outside. It's full of partnerships that are glittery, and to some, the goal in life. I don't want glitter. I don't want flashing lights. I want to sparkle from the inside out, and in order for that to be, we have to just stay. 

Stay with me. Be with me. 

Love Gives

These two words continue to resonate within my soul from a wedding that I recently attended.

It gives. That's all there is to it. Love overcomes hurdles that no amount of intellect will ever be able to grasp. No matter how much we think about it, it will NEVER make sense.

Different kinds of love? Certainly, but they all have that one thing in common. They give.

I'm praying for God to help me givingly love. To be able to understand myself enough to never compromise my individuality, but to fall in love. To fall in love without worrying about what might happen, and just focus on what IS happening.

What is happening:
There is this guy in my life that I care about, and for so long my cynical mindset has kept me from giving the way that I really do want to.

Is he "The One"? I don't know, but I don't have to know. I trust that God has put the right people in my life and that I'm strong enough to push through each season and all of the changes that come along with that.

It'll never be a mistake, because it's a part of my growth.

Are there standards? Of course there are. I've worked too hard to get where I am to let anything jeopardize that, but as long as that love is giving on both ends, I don't see how it can do anything but add to my life.

My prayer:
God guide me. This is uncertain ground, but you are my certain ground and I put all of my trust in you. I'll stand firm in who you're making me to be. I'll allow you to use me as your instrument of peace.I'll sit safely in your lap of love. And if it ends, there is no loss, because I gave love, and there is never a loss in love.

"You know what Michelle? I love you"

For the past three weeks of my life I have felt like all hell has broken loose. I've tried to be strong. I've tried to hold fast, but I have been broken. I've tried to cling to the things in my life that bring me the most joy, and they have eased the pain, but it's still been SO tough. When the waves are crashing, the ship just won't stay steady on the water.


The past 3 days have been so much more enjoyable. I have begun to look at all of the positive and all of the things that I have and really surround myself and bask in my blessings.

After nap time today, one very special little boy looked at me and said "You know what Michelle? I love you"(No Ms. in front. Very personal.)

Those very moments take my breath away and breathe life into my soul at the same time. It's almost as if the very voice of God is whispering "You know what Michelle? I love you. And I don't care that you don't understand. And it's not important for you to see why right now. I need you to trust me. I need you to trust my plan for you. I need you to let go."

I am so very blessed to be who I am and where I am. I have SO much. Not of monetary value, but of love. From the time that I was born until this moment, my parents, grandparents, siblings, and friends have showered me and wrapped me in love. And that love continues to push me onward.

Never Gonna Give Up

It's really been an ongoing thing in my life, and I've often felt silly. Sometimes I'm the only one standing, and sometimes there are others standing by my side. No matter what, I don't believe in giving up and I don't believe in lost causes. I do know that there are times when I am forced to brush my feet off and keep on going, but I never let go of that individual and I always think of them, in hopes that my thoughts will somehow be with them. I don't like being told "you can't." Because I know that if I want to, I can. Those "You can't" words hurt even worse when they come from someone that you respect. Stings. Really bad. I know that I can. So I will. 

Rose Colored Glasses

If accused, I'd plead guilty. It's how I've always been. I don't think really hard about what could happen, until it does happen. As far as peace of mind goes, I have a great deal of it. I'm not shaken easily. I don't worry about locking doors most of the time, but in habit I do do it when I leave my house (most of the time) . This past Thursday my theory of "If they want in, they're coming in" was proven. Someone, or someones broke into my house and took what I believe to be what they could carry. They took my electronic devices and some jewelry. I was upset. I was hurt, but most of all I was scared. I felt fear flood my body in places that I have never felt it before. When I walked into my house, after going to get my daddy because I felt the "Someone's been in my house" feeling at the front door, I saw that my stuff had been taken, and I was really fine until I went into my bedroom and saw that my closet had been gone through along with all of my jewelry boxes. I felt a feeling of invasion. I felt deprived of oxygen and I was more hurt than anything.

It's all just stuff. It can all be replaced for the most part, but my peace of mind, it was stolen. I decided that I was a big girl and that I could handle spending the night by myself. At about 10:30pm I heard something and felt panic flush through my body. I called my daddy and he came and got me. I felt pathetic. I felt childish. I felt helpless, because even though I could rationalize within my mind that nobody wanted to hurt me, they just wanted my stuff, my psyche could not wrap itself all the way around that.

As I sit here tonight, after spending the night here last night, I can feel the peace of God rushing back through my body. The truth is that I find my peace in him and that's why I'm going to be ok. He holds me right now. I'm not alone in my house. He's right here with me, and so is his peace. He covers me with his love. He wraps me in light. It's a light that darkness cannot penetrate. It's a light that will make the night appear to be day.

I love my house, and it will take a little bit of time for my mind to catch up with all of this, but my soul knows that I am safe in the arms of my everlasting love.