Rose Colored Glasses

If accused, I'd plead guilty. It's how I've always been. I don't think really hard about what could happen, until it does happen. As far as peace of mind goes, I have a great deal of it. I'm not shaken easily. I don't worry about locking doors most of the time, but in habit I do do it when I leave my house (most of the time) . This past Thursday my theory of "If they want in, they're coming in" was proven. Someone, or someones broke into my house and took what I believe to be what they could carry. They took my electronic devices and some jewelry. I was upset. I was hurt, but most of all I was scared. I felt fear flood my body in places that I have never felt it before. When I walked into my house, after going to get my daddy because I felt the "Someone's been in my house" feeling at the front door, I saw that my stuff had been taken, and I was really fine until I went into my bedroom and saw that my closet had been gone through along with all of my jewelry boxes. I felt a feeling of invasion. I felt deprived of oxygen and I was more hurt than anything.

It's all just stuff. It can all be replaced for the most part, but my peace of mind, it was stolen. I decided that I was a big girl and that I could handle spending the night by myself. At about 10:30pm I heard something and felt panic flush through my body. I called my daddy and he came and got me. I felt pathetic. I felt childish. I felt helpless, because even though I could rationalize within my mind that nobody wanted to hurt me, they just wanted my stuff, my psyche could not wrap itself all the way around that.

As I sit here tonight, after spending the night here last night, I can feel the peace of God rushing back through my body. The truth is that I find my peace in him and that's why I'm going to be ok. He holds me right now. I'm not alone in my house. He's right here with me, and so is his peace. He covers me with his love. He wraps me in light. It's a light that darkness cannot penetrate. It's a light that will make the night appear to be day.

I love my house, and it will take a little bit of time for my mind to catch up with all of this, but my soul knows that I am safe in the arms of my everlasting love.