A Choice

(My Eat.Pray.Love. inspired blog) 

The way I see it a woman has many choices that she makes throughout her lifetime and on a daily basis; what shoes to wear with which dress, what fragrance fits the evening best, which eyeshadow makes her eyes sparkle the most. But, some of her most important choices are ones that impact her life on a more serious level.

Society has a way of masking this fact from us, and if we're not careful we might start to think that things that we really do get to choose, aren't choices at all.

See, in some countries women aren't allowed to choose the person that they spend their life with. They don't date. They don't fall in love. They don't choose. But in this country we are privileged to have the freedom of dating, of finding out what we want and what we don't want. Our intuition speaks to us. It tells us whether it works, or not. Do we always listen? I'd say no. We don't always listen, and sometimes that voice inside that's saying "This just doesn't fit" is outweighed by the ones saying," There's this white dress" and  "perfect shoes"and "All my friends will be there" and "My mama loves him" and so on. We listen to the voices around us instead of listening to the one within~and that's the one we have to live with.

After being close to falling into a hole I've decided that this choice is about me. I'm a giving person and I love to be able to make the people in my life happy, but when I make this choice, when I chose the person that I'll spend the rest of my life with, It will be right, and it will be for me.

I've recently had to say to a very "good" guy that my choice is this.............and little did I know this was a proclamation of the fact that I am proud to exercise this right.

I am so glad that I get to choose and that I realize that this is my choice. I'm in a very blessed season of my life, and I can say that I don't always fit. There's not a lot of people my age that agree with me, but there are those few that have been placed in my life for the divine purpose of offering the support that I need to know that I HAVE A CHOICE, and I provide the same for them.

My prayer is that the exercising of my right will in some way enable someone else that lives in that box to be freed from the bondage of thinking that there is a norm to fit. There is no norm. Create your own norm, because in the end you're the one that lives with that norm.


And so, I'll dance with my hair down

 ‎"Love that will not betray you, dismay or enslave you,It will set you free.Be more like the person you were made to be.There is a design,an alignment to cry,of my heart you see,The beauty of love as it was made to be."

I mean I seriously could have written this, and I did slightly alter a word..............too bad I didn't write it :) 

There is something entirely spiritual about these few words. Something very real and very pure. 

Thank God for a good walk and a the good shuffle feature on my ipod!  

If it ain't right in my soul, then it just ain't right.

"There are two ways to be fooled. One is to believe what isn't true; the other is to refuse to believe what is true."
— Søren Kierkegaard


As women, we just know. We have this innate ability to know if it's all lining up or not. Many women are afraid of that, and they do everything that they can to drown that voice out, but thank God that mine screams load enough for me to hear it. 


Compromising yourself=fake=unhappy


That's what I think. 


If it ain't right in my soul, then it just ain't right. 

I Want Real

 ‎"Don't you wanna stay here a little while?Don't you wanna hold each other tight?"

I want to stay here a little while. I want to stay exactly where I am. I want to feel my way into it. I want to be held, and know that by learning about each other I can truly fall in love. I want to be real. I want to be understood, and I want to be loved completely; completely for the person that God has created me to be. I won't hide, and if that can't be handled, then it'll be time for me to take notice of that fact. 

"Don't you wanna fall asleep with me tonight? Don't you wanna stay here a little while? We can make forever feel this way?Don't you wanna stay?"

I want to hang onto every moment, and never push for the next. I want to breathe in the time that we have right now. I want to sit back and realize my blessings. Be lazy with me. I don't want to make plans. I make plans all the time. I know that I know how to make plans, but I want to know how to NOT make plans. I want to feel it out; figuring moment by moment. I need to feel. I want real. 

This world is full of flashing lights and shiny "relationships". Full of things that look amazing from the outside. It's full of partnerships that are glittery, and to some, the goal in life. I don't want glitter. I don't want flashing lights. I want to sparkle from the inside out, and in order for that to be, we have to just stay. 

Stay with me. Be with me.